Bittersweet Life...

Thursday, June 17, 2004

juz came home. from, nth actually. yesterday, wenta johor. did shopping. too lazy to like really tell the details. so wateva...

talking on phone now.. oklah. i think ill tell lah coz i dunno wat to say in this entry. firstly, went to do some rations shopping. u noe... the detergent and stuff? faham2 lah... finally, wenta shopping. it was like a surprise coz my dad actually agreed to go. otherwise, he could have like rejected tt idea. i was kinda happy lah, tt he wanted to go. however, after purchasing ONE 1 top (OP top, which is in pink. didnt y, maybe influence from mum..haiz!), onli 1 u noe, he said, " done? go home rite now?" i was like freakin out! his interest to go shoppin was like, i dunno lah. then after tt, he got frustrated when i decided to take a look at some of the tops in the other shops. i mean, yeah, he's like kinda scared coz i mite have a lot of potential to buy the stuff. and hell ya, i did. but all i can do was to control myself. the need to spend the extra ringgits was killing me! argh! so in the end, onli manage to buy 1 shirt and a sport-like shoe. well, somethin is better than nth.

im so out of money. mum has not given me back my $60. i used my own money to buy jeans and sandals first, then she has not paid me back. i need the $$$! fuck lah! im like so deprived of money now.. dunno y. i noe tt i have been spending a lot, and i think it's my mood swings again. i feel it's so hard to save hard. usually i wouldnt have difficulty in not spending so much. haiz... teenagers. izzit tt diff to live life as a teen?

talked to khairi again, a couple of days back. hey khairi, nice talking to ya again! but gotta control smsing lah... hope u understand. talk to u again soon aitez?

today, nth much happened. wenta sch, supposed to be studying. but tt ais got tt exco meeting. actually, i could like do my work, but, erm... training was goin on. hehe... so, yeah, wenta to see the trainings instead of doin my work. hehe... the sec 1s were like so not serious. even during punishment they were still smiling. haiz... well, the CI in charge pampered them to much lah. even the scoldings seems nth to them. anyways, i think the CI tak sampai hati to even scold them. haiz... im not a sadist tau anyway. then, mkn at BK. cant help myself. i told myself not to eat, but when rabia offered my her money, i juz had to use my money and spend it. u noe sth? it's killin me not to spend, but it's killin me not to save. if u dun understand, then nvm lah. wateva.

enuf lah 4 now... tired already.

Smashed into pieces at 6/17/2004 03:30:00 PM